Hello my dears,
I hope that life is
going well for you all. I miss you girls more than words can tell. But I am
looking forward to seeing you all again soon, at Mel’s WEDDING!!! J Of which, Mel, words cannot tell you how happy I
am for you! This brings my heart so much joy and gladness. Now, I just need
sweet Jules to find an amazing man and I would be one happy girl for all of my
sweet friends!
I just wanted to give
you a little update. My life is crazy right now. Today was definitely one of
those pep talk days, telling myself I can do this. But I have to keep going and
keep trying. In the end, it’ll all be ok!
Last week was spring
break for me, and I was able to go home and spend that with my family and a few
friends. I also had the opportunity to go to a Dr. appt with my Mom. She has
since finished Radiation and Chemo (just a low dose oral Chemo pill) and all of
the Dr’s are extremely pleased with her outcome thus far. The tumor has indeed
shrunk and in the direction we needed it. Fortunately, my Mom had very little
side effects from the treatments. She would be tired early in the evening and
felt nauseated if she didn't eat. But otherwise, most of the time I forgot that
she has cancer. So last week I went with my parents to the appt with the
surgeon. My Mom still has to have surgery but until the Dr is physically in the
OR we will not know the extent of it. Because of the tumor placement we aren't sure if she’ll have a permanent or temporary Colostomy bag. That won’t be until
the day of surgery.
Here is where I need
your help. I need prayers. Not just for me, but for my Mom, the surgeon, and
especially as silly as it sounds the tumor, that it will have shrunk enough for
my Mom to just have a temporary Colostomy. My Mom has elected to have her
surgery on May 3rd. Here is where I need the prayers. I have a test
on May 10th then my final on May 15th. So with the school
stress and the surgery stress to top it off, I will need all the help I can
get. It stresses me out just thinking about it. I feel guilty that I won’t be
able to really be there with my Mom too much because of school. But she just
tells me not to worry about her and to just focus on school. Right Mom, like that’ll happen.
The other part of my stress is that I haven’t
done as well as I have wanted to on my exams. This last test I barely passed with
a 70%. It’s passing, but barely. Granted the class average was only 72%, so I
should be happy with my grade. But I need to be able to do much better on this
next test. I have had a hard time staying motivated and focused. I've got to
keep it together these next few weeks. But between working (sometimes full time)
and studying and life and trying to make friends, it’s hard.
I know that I can tell you my struggles and
that you will still love me and support me. And for that I will be eternally
grateful. You are one of the greatest blessings I could ask for. I thank
God for blessing me to have you in my life.
I hope that you are
all doing well. Know that I think of you often and that I love you!
Love,
Chanel
